Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Wisdom from my pantry


Tucked inside my cramped pantry is a little paper I have taped to the wall.  It is a Bible verse I came across that says:

Whatever you do, do it wholeheartedly as though you were working for your 
real master and not merely for humans. It is Christ
your real master, whom you are serving.
-Colossians 3 23-24-

I am in and out of my pantry a million times a day and each time I get something, I take a quick glance at my verse.  It used to be only written in pen, but I have since highlighted it as well to make sure I take note of it every time.

When my eldest daughter was an infant, she was a difficult baby.  She needed to be held constantly, she cried when she was put down, she didn't like to eat, she didn't like to sleep...you get the picture right?  I used to get so frustrated..so frustrated...because her "behavior" was getting in the way of me becoming the mother I wanted to be.  Sounds ridiculous huh?  It wasn't ridiculous to me at the time though.  I resented the fact that I had a "difficult" baby, I did not enjoy her personality at the time because it didn't fit into the way I wanted things to be.

Then someone told me something that changed things for me.  When my daughter was particularly difficult and waking up every 1.5 hours a night..someone told me to imagine that it was baby Jesus I was holding.  Imagine rocking and consoling baby Jesus in my arms.  

I did just that.  

And things changed.

Flash forward five years and two kids later, I find myself needing the same reminder.  

This week I have been off my game.  My lesson plans are not done, my laundry is behind, my house is messy and we have eaten out a little more than I would like to.  I have been feeling like I am missing the joy that can come from keeping a home.  Instead of seeing many tasks I can offer to the Lord, I am seeing mundane chores that I feel to lazy to tackle.  Instead of seeing opportunities to teach my children how to be holy, I am seeing children who are testing my last nerve.

A trip to my pantry is in order.

I think this Bible verse is going to be my verse for the year.  I can see how easily I can become burnt out and overwhelmed when I'm missing the BIG picture.  With each chore and lesson I do, I'm going to really think about doing it as if I am serving God...and I am going to try to do it joyfully.  What a simple shift in thinking...but what a powerful one it can be!

7 comments:

  1. I just stumbled upon your blog. I also have a Kindergartener and we are doing Sonlight Core A. Last week we used that same verse (just a different) version for a character study on diligence. And trust me I've had to pull it out again for both me and my daughter. =)

    I'll be checking back. It's nice to find someone in the same stage doing a lot of the same things I am.

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  2. Nicole, I really needed to read this tonight! Thank you so much for the inspiration! I so much want to have joy in my home and in everything I do in it. I have really been working on it and this was truly a validation! I love the verse!!!!

    God bless,
    Lisa

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  3. Thank you Lisa! I always get SO MUCH inspiration from reading your blog! It always looks like your family is JOYFUL and that you are enjoying mothering and homeschooling, I just love it!

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  4. Hi Mandy! I'm so glad that you found my blog! Are you blogging as well? I would love to connect with someone else doing Core A for a Kindergarten curriculum. Send me an email and I would love to chat!

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  5. hey Nicole, Love your blog!! It's nice to hear that I'm not the only one that sometimes feels frustrated and 'not joyful' to be a mom! I too had a 'challenging' first born. He really taught me a lot about what it means to be patient and to love unconditionally (I am still learning this on a daily basis:)). At the time I used to think 'what is God thinking.. giving me this child that needs sooo much and I am so unequipped to handle all of these challenges...I did not think I was the 'loving' mother I wanted to be. But when I had my second child, Evelina, which also wasn't an easy baby, I felt much more at ease because I knew that God KNOWS what He is doing and I should just trust in HIM and that all things pass. God gave me the strength to get through ALL the challenges. I read somewhere that parenting is not about changing the child and making him/her into what we think they should be but rather it is the parent that changes and grows into a better person, it really is a work in progress for the parent...not the child. This is something I did not really think about until I had children.
    When I have difficult days I just forget about everything that 'needs' to be done and play with my kids....and then I realize the wonderful gifts that God gave to me to raise. Keep up the great entries!!

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  6. "Parenting is not about changing the child and making him/her into what we think they should be but rather it is the parent who changes"...YES! I love this! It is so true. I notice that with each subsequent child I have loosened up a bit and let go of this perfect model of mothering that I hold in my head. Playing with your kids during the difficult days is a GREAT idea...for both parents and the kids too! Thanks for visiting my blog Dominika!

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